Growing up is expensive, scary, and completely necessary.
So I have had a lot of changes all at once.
First, friends~ It has been a weird road and I don't regret anything that has happened because it has put me on the path that I am and it has made somethings possible but it is hard to feel like to do certain things and to be you that you have to give up friends that have meant the world to you.
Second, Apartment~ Since March I have been struggling to know where to live. I was going to move up North....didn't feel good about it. I was going to stay in Provo...didn't feel good about it. Finally, I felt like I just needed to move on with life. I decided to stay in Provo. After scoping out places with some fun girls we decided on a place. We announced our intention to sign contracts.....a couple days later the other two girls signed. It took me about three weeks to finally sign, then I looked at it again and immediately backed out because the one we signed for wasn't at all like the one we looked out. Then we lost one of the girls and gained another girl and kinda looked. Cancelled our old contract and were supposed to sign new ones but I just kept putting it off....and putting it off....and putting it off....nothing felt right. Then bam.....one day I looked at Craigslist and found a place...first one all year...I felt excited for....two days later still felt good....saw it and still felt good.....signed for it and still felt good. Here is the schocker it is up north in Sandy but really close to Midvale and 10 minutes from my school....WOW!!!!! Life changes so suddenly and I feel so good about it. Four out of the five girls in the house are teachers....YAY!!!!!
Third- Along with moving comes expenses...Now I have to furnish my own room...OUCH!!!! Luckily, I found CHEAP furniture. Unfortunately, my bed was 1,000. Man growing up is EXPENSIVE!!!!!!
Last item DATING~ Sometimes I am hopeful, sometimes depressed, sometimes I just don't care. Well I went on the BEST DATE of my LIFE a little bit ago. I was so excited. It has been a long time building and I thought that maybe for once this might be a different story. Well, WRONG.... see since I finally saw it as a possibility and I tried being open I stopped being interesting and I haven't heard from the guy since. Ah well!!!!! Now I just don't care. I am tired of the games and I just want to be me and maybe save up for some FUN VACATIONS next summer! Hopefully, I won't have to spend 1500 on my car this year and 40 a week in gas since I won't be commuting and putting so many miles on my car. And that will leave some money for a England vacation!!!!! I am going with people or alone I am just tired of waiting for other people so I am going with or without them!
