Drama Free actually has a down side

There is a concept that I have discussed on multiple occasions here on my blog and in person with people. The extremes in life and in myself. I have talked about, for example one my greatest strength in my ability to love and love deeply that I don't give up on people on the opposite end when you hurt me or something else happens my dislike is just as strong and so as evident which is one of my weakness (shutting out people). I have often mused about how to get rid of my weakness and when I work on it I realize that my strength becomes a little more watered down. Also this can be shown when people talk about flying on the heights of happiness with dreams and happiness the people who fly the highest also seem to drop the lowest. Are we (I in particular) willing to give up the heights that I fly so my lows aren't so low or is the high worth the crash? It is a question I am constantly rethinking and this weekend I have though of another aspect.

I have talked too much, or at all, about my living conditions this year. I live in a house with three other girls all of which are teachers. It is nice to have people on a similar schedule as me. The girls are nice but I wouldn't say anything truly truly negative about anyone but at the same time I don't have anything really positive to say about anyone either. One of the girls is just not someone I would associate with by choice. To me she comes off fake and showy but at the same time I know it is just her. She is very serious and I am not at least not in the same way. Those of you who know me know that I am very serious while also being very very light hearted and find lots to laugh at. So overall I would say that I won't fit in with the girls and won't be best friends but I won't fight with them either. We all just live or own lives, in fact I even attend a different ward than my roommates. I hang out with my own friends our by myself in my room.

Overall I would call my new existence drame free. I am used to have roommates who are fresh to college and really immature. They chase the boys and just are annoying and cannot take care of themselves, roommates that depended on me to give them social lives, roommates who made me feel bad for myself, roommates who hadt he most annoyning boyfriends and fiancee, roommates who made me feel lke I couldn't be in my own house, roommates who care, are emotionally needy, jealousy, insensitive, in one word DRAMA!!! Another way to describing it is also draining, like my friend has said if there is an emotionally needy person within a mile they will find me and drain me.

So what do I do with a drame free existence. I do have a lot time now that I am not talking care of a crying roommate, an unhappy roommate, depressed roommate, attention needy roommate, etc.... But someone said so how soon am I moving out because I won't be best friends. I started to think about things. Would I move out? Do I just want to stay here? I like my room and I live my house and I like my location so would I actually move out or do I like my live in my own world and to be left alone?

No to tie this musing of roommates in with the earlier musings about strenghts and weaknesses. As I complained about the drama of other roommates. I will say this, the hardest most dramatic roommate I ever lived with who made my life really really hard and at times all I could do was to hid and what for the crazy moods to pass or for me to get enough strenght to hand her again was also the roommate I had the most fun with. We would have random instanteous parties or just girls, jokes, laughs, and it was just so much fun. Yes it was some of my hardest times but it was also some of my most enjoyable times. So that being said. I live a drama free existence and am able to focus on other things rather than being constantly drained at home but is the trade off worth it? I used to have so much fun and roommates that yes drove me nuts and I sometimes wanted to just kill but I would also consider them best friends. When it really mattered most of them were there for me. In fact two of them despite everything and now even marriage are still epople I would consider my closest friends still. So we had roommates who were drama we were able to rise above them. (Please note that while the two roommates I am talking about and I had our problems but they are not the drama roommates I am talking about that usually was the place the other two roommates we lived with held). Back on point so I want drama free roommates or roommates that I can be friends with and party with, is it possible to be friends and have fun with roommates without them being drama?