Ch..Ch...Changes

There are a lot of things I am very concerned right now and occupy nearly my every waking thoughts. The first one being my students, in particular my Mock Trial kids and having them come together and work as a team. The new students that I just have seem great but I miss some of my old favorites from last semester. The second concern is living conditions. To live on my own or not is the question. My roommate is buying a house. She is great and is so excited. She also found a GREAT DEAL!!! This house needs some improvements but for the neighborhood and the price she is getting it for it is a STEAL!!! I mean it. But her buying this house has made me face what I am doing sooner than when I wanted to and it has actually made me really concerned what is the best for me. So I am going to write Pros and Cons as follow

Pro of the house with my roommate:
Nice Location
Cheaper than current room
Trust the roommates
We are respectful of each others' space
Free to do my own thing
Close to School
Save Money

Cons of the house with my roommate:
TEENY TINY ROOMS, seriously my bed will take up one room and I would have to put a lot of my stuff in other places around the house. (Suggestion by the roommate if you wondered)

GROSS, OLD BATHROOM!!!!! Seriously nasty, and the showers are so so short!

Then my roommate said to me, "We get along so well living together because we all just do our separate things and stay in our rooms. I don't even need to buy a coach for the house." Where she is saying this is a pro, I put it firmly in the cons. If I am going to be sharing space with people, at this point of my life, I want to be friends with my roommates and do stuff with them and throw parties with them and have fun with them. Otherwise what is the point of living with people.

Don't know who gets what, such as parking and rooms in the house

So where does this leave me...RENTING MY OWN PLACE!!!! It is so exciting to me. I just get so happy thinking of being on my own and not dealing with roommate crap.

Pros:
MY OWN SPACE!!!!!
No drama!!!!

Cons:
Have to buy more furniture
MORE EXPENSIVE!! That is scary to me. Really scary I like saving money and having plenty to do whatever I like because I am careful with my money. This would make it nearly impossible.

Reflecting on 2010

I, like everyone else, have taken sometime at the beginning of this new year to look over the past year. I have to say that all in all 2010 was not too shabby especially when compare to 2009. For those of you who were not paying attention or didn't know 2009 sucked. There is nothing different I can say about it other than it SUCKED A LOT. I was so glad to see 2009 end. 2010 was a little different there was still a lot of residual problems and issues left over from 2009 but all in all it was so much better and not only that but this time as the new year came I felt hopefully with the prospects of what 2011 will bring into my life which again I didn't feel last year, last year my only feelings were please please make it better than 2009, but I wasn't excited. This year I am excited. A lot of things began going in a positive direction in my life. Now not to say it was a great year but it started to turn around and head in better directions. That being stated I hope that 2011 will actually have exciting things in it.
Only a month in and there are some things I am planning and looking forward to, namely right now I am trying to get it together to finally visit Washington D.C. I feel like a fraud for not having been and being a History teacher but I plan on going this summer and stopping other places in the East. This makes me so excited to have something fun to do this summer so now I have something to look forward to and to plan on. I am also going to try and go to a summer seminar that sounds way good, also in the east.
Other things is that I am determined, call it a New Years resolution is you please, to find myself again. Recently I have been so caught up in stress, pain, drama, and healing to really be me. I am determined to be the girl who would knew everyone in the ward and who could always find people to be friends. I used to love huge crowds because it was more people to socialize with. I used to go out of my way to find the people who didn't have a group and give them one. The past two years that girl got lost, and in fact that girl was the one without a group or friends and I remember praying and praying that someone would find me and help me. Unfortunately no one really did but now more than ever I know how important it is to reach out, I don't feel as weak or lonely anymore so I am going to use this momentum to push forward and find myself and then find them.

Otherwise, I am going to keep moving forward in my progression. I am excited for 2011 and that feels good, in fact that feels like step one in getting back to my old self. It is exciting and wonderful to feel excitement again and to feel like their are possibilities out there for me.