Something More

Happy, Bubbling, Smiling

But there is more

Chasm of loneliness

Constantly threatening to overwhelm

Sadness so dark

Afraid it'll swallow me whole

Wanting so badly 

For someone to see

There is something more

Not ll the more is bad

Constant as the sun

Giving as a tree

Striving for perfection

Loving Unconditionally

Afraid of everything

Especially those who see

My secrets

My weaknesses

My sadness

My loneliness

Happy, Bubbly, Smiley

But Definitely 

Something More

Just Out of Reach

Just Out of Reach

Forced to sit by and watch

Trapped behind a wall

Wanting to be part of the game

But not knowing the rules

Everything I dream of

Just Out of Reach

I stretch and angle by arm

Wanting happiness so badly

Finally I Fall

Still

Just Out of Reach

Plaster on the smile

Pretend I am not broken

Forced to watch everyone's happiness

Bruised

Broken

Afraid to try

Forever it is

Just Out of Reach

The Gardener

Spring is finally here

It's been so long

Color returns

Laughter abounds

But everyone sees the flowers

No one sees the Gardener

She toils day and night

Promoting beauty and joy

She wants it to be perfect

To be a place of 

Play, laughter, picnics

But no one sees the Gardener

No one asks the Gardener

No one cares about the Gardener

She pays the price

With the tears no one sees

She makes it welcoming

With the pain she never shares

Spring is finally here

The Gardener's work never ends