All my life I’ve tried to make everybody happy
While I just hurt and hide
Waiting for someone to tell me it’s my turn to decide
While I just hurt and hide
Waiting for someone to tell me it’s my turn to decide
No matter how true those words are can I express my gratitude that things are changing for me. I remember that I had a Bishop, someone who was supposed to be my spiritual adviser say some really hurtful things to me. I went home and called my friend Jane and cried on the phone. Jane's responses was, "I bet you tried to make him feel okay about saying those awful things and while your heart broke you tried to make sure he was okay." It was totally true my heart was broken into tiny pieces and I felt horrible about myself but I was really worried about he felt.
Second scenario: I had a friend. She was so much fun. When you want to have a dance party she should be the first person on everyone's invite list. But she would say things to me that would crush me on a regular basis and I would never say things. Sometimes I would hide from her for awhile but I was always afraid to hurt her. She was fragile and didn't take criticism AT ALL. She really did not like anyone else telling her that she did anything wrong and she would never believe she actually did. So to make her happy and to keep the peace I would hide and hurt without saying anything.
I could go on and on about all the different times in my life that to make everyone else happy I just hid and hurt. I did, and in some ways still do,constantly want other people's permission to decide for myself. But guess what!!! I have taken many major steps in the last three months of my life of telling people that I no longer desire nor am I waiting for their approval or permission to be me and decide for myself. And I have to say it feels amazingly. So here is what I have to say to all you people who made me hurt and hide and all you guys expecting me to do anything to keep you happy!!!!
Second scenario: I had a friend. She was so much fun. When you want to have a dance party she should be the first person on everyone's invite list. But she would say things to me that would crush me on a regular basis and I would never say things. Sometimes I would hide from her for awhile but I was always afraid to hurt her. She was fragile and didn't take criticism AT ALL. She really did not like anyone else telling her that she did anything wrong and she would never believe she actually did. So to make her happy and to keep the peace I would hide and hurt without saying anything.
I could go on and on about all the different times in my life that to make everyone else happy I just hid and hurt. I did, and in some ways still do,constantly want other people's permission to decide for myself. But guess what!!! I have taken many major steps in the last three months of my life of telling people that I no longer desire nor am I waiting for their approval or permission to be me and decide for myself. And I have to say it feels amazingly. So here is what I have to say to all you people who made me hurt and hide and all you guys expecting me to do anything to keep you happy!!!!
You’ve got opinions, man
We’re all entitled to ‘em, but I never asked
So let me thank you for your time, and try not to waste anymore of mine
Who cares if you disagree?
You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So you dare tell me who to be?
Who died and made you king of anything?
We’re all entitled to ‘em, but I never asked
So let me thank you for your time, and try not to waste anymore of mine
Who cares if you disagree?
You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So you dare tell me who to be?
Who died and made you king of anything?
