Reflecting on 2010

I, like everyone else, have taken sometime at the beginning of this new year to look over the past year. I have to say that all in all 2010 was not too shabby especially when compare to 2009. For those of you who were not paying attention or didn't know 2009 sucked. There is nothing different I can say about it other than it SUCKED A LOT. I was so glad to see 2009 end. 2010 was a little different there was still a lot of residual problems and issues left over from 2009 but all in all it was so much better and not only that but this time as the new year came I felt hopefully with the prospects of what 2011 will bring into my life which again I didn't feel last year, last year my only feelings were please please make it better than 2009, but I wasn't excited. This year I am excited. A lot of things began going in a positive direction in my life. Now not to say it was a great year but it started to turn around and head in better directions. That being stated I hope that 2011 will actually have exciting things in it.
Only a month in and there are some things I am planning and looking forward to, namely right now I am trying to get it together to finally visit Washington D.C. I feel like a fraud for not having been and being a History teacher but I plan on going this summer and stopping other places in the East. This makes me so excited to have something fun to do this summer so now I have something to look forward to and to plan on. I am also going to try and go to a summer seminar that sounds way good, also in the east.
Other things is that I am determined, call it a New Years resolution is you please, to find myself again. Recently I have been so caught up in stress, pain, drama, and healing to really be me. I am determined to be the girl who would knew everyone in the ward and who could always find people to be friends. I used to love huge crowds because it was more people to socialize with. I used to go out of my way to find the people who didn't have a group and give them one. The past two years that girl got lost, and in fact that girl was the one without a group or friends and I remember praying and praying that someone would find me and help me. Unfortunately no one really did but now more than ever I know how important it is to reach out, I don't feel as weak or lonely anymore so I am going to use this momentum to push forward and find myself and then find them.

Otherwise, I am going to keep moving forward in my progression. I am excited for 2011 and that feels good, in fact that feels like step one in getting back to my old self. It is exciting and wonderful to feel excitement again and to feel like their are possibilities out there for me.